Letting Go
update 6/3/2024: it took almost 5 more years before I finally let go. If this post resonates, if you’re in the same position, let go right now, I promise your life will be better in every single way.
Letting go is so hard to do sometimes, almost impossible it seems. I am not sure what it is, but Just cant kick the habit, every few weeks Ill relapse and then when the smoke has cleared and the house is empty once again I come to the realization that things will never change and I am the only one who has the power to break this vicious cycle. I am not sure why I cannot do it… “I don’t know.”
But I can no longer shift the blame to this other individual. They are a sociopath and my expectations are very low… I am the one to blame because I seem to enjoy the abuse, and heartache, and pain. I thrive off of it, I don’t like to sit around without any problems in my life. I seek and receive every negative emotion i can think of. And when I finally die of a heart attack or stomach ulcer from all the stress I will only have myself to blame for all of it.
I forgive you for what you have done, now I just need to forget about you and get you as far as I can out of my life. You are no good for me. I am not good for you, we are not meant to be together. There was a time that I thought we were soul mates, but if that is the case then God must have really given me a shitty hand.
Thank you for reading! Share your thoughts with me on bluesky, mastodon, or via email.
Check out some more stuff to read down below.
Most popular posts this month
- 2024
- Setting up ANTLR4 on Windows
- My Custom Miniflux CSS Theme
- SQLite DB Migrations with PRAGMA user_version
- Ten Years of Dreaming of San Francisco
Recent Favorite Blog Posts
This is a collection of the last 8 posts that I bookmarked.
- Fedora Magazine: Contribute to Fedora 44 KDE and GNOME Test Days from Fedora People
- Pluralistic: bunnie's piggyback hack (09 Jan 2026) from Pluralistic: Daily links from Cory Doctorow
- Clicks Communicator from Chris Hannah
- A Year Of Vibes from Armin Ronacher's Thoughts and Writings
- Pluralistic: A perfect distillation of the social uselessness of finance (18 Dec 2025) from Pluralistic: Daily links from Cory Doctorow
- Moving from WordPress to Substack from charity.wtf
- Grow, Like a Tree Not a Cancer from Jim Nielsen’s Blog
- Pluralistic: All the books I reviewed in 2025 (02 Dec 2025) from Pluralistic: Daily links from Cory Doctorow
Articles from blogs I follow around the net
Announcing Live AI & Design Systems Jam Sessions!
Ian, TJ, and I are excited to announce live AI & Design Systems Jam Sessions with our AI & Design Systems course community! Our first jam session will be Thursday, February 26 at 10AM ET. In these recurring biweekly Zoom […]
via Blog – Brad Frost February 16, 2026I Sold Out for $20 a Month and All I Got Was This Perfectly Generated Terraform
Until recently the LLM tools I’ve tried have been, to be frank, worthless. Copilot was best at writing extremely verbose comments. Gemini would turn a 200 line script into a 700 line collection of gibberish. It was easy for me to, more or less, ignore LLM…
via matduggan.com February 16, 2026Pluralistic: The online community trilemma (16 Feb 2026)
Today's links The online community trilemma: Reach, community and information, pick two. Hey look at this: Delights to delectate. Object permanence: Bruces x Sony DRM; Eniac tell-all; HBO v PVRs; Fucking damselflies; Gil Scout Cookie wine-pairings; Bi…
via Pluralistic: Daily links from Cory Doctorow February 16, 2026Generated by openring