Letting Go

| life | love |

update 6/3/2024: it took almost 5 more years before I finally let go. If this post resonates, if you’re in the same position, let go right now, I promise your life will be better in every single way.

Letting go is so hard to do sometimes, almost impossible it seems. I am not sure what it is, but Just cant kick the habit, every few weeks Ill relapse and then when the smoke has cleared and the house is empty once again I come to the realization that things will never change and I am the only one who has the power to break this vicious cycle. I am not sure why I cannot do it… “I don’t know.”

But I can no longer shift the blame to this other individual. They are a sociopath and my expectations are very low… I am the one to blame because I seem to enjoy the abuse, and heartache, and pain. I thrive off of it, I don’t like to sit around without any problems in my life. I seek and receive every negative emotion i can think of. And when I finally die of a heart attack or stomach ulcer from all the stress I will only have myself to blame for all of it.

I forgive you for what you have done, now I just need to forget about you and get you as far as I can out of my life. You are no good for me. I am not good for you, we are not meant to be together. There was a time that I thought we were soul mates, but if that is the case then God must have really given me a shitty hand.

Thank you for reading! Share your thoughts with me on bluesky, mastodon, or via email.

Check out some more stuff to read down below.

Most popular posts this month

Recent Favorite Blog Posts

This is a collection of the last 8 posts that I bookmarked.

Articles from blogs I follow around the net

“Stop calling it work” – Cedric Raguenaud

Cedric Raguenaud argues that.. “When we label our photographic pursuits as “work,” we unconsciously impose constraints and expectations that belong in the professional world. Suddenly, we feel pressured to maintain visibility, chase originality, and demon…

via Colin Devroe February 10, 2025

The Art of Making Websites

Hidde de Vries gave a great talked titled “Creativity cannot be computed” (you can checkout the slides or watch the video). In his slides he has lots of bullet points that attempt to define what art is, and then in the talk he spends time covering each one…

via Jim Nielsen’s Blog February 10, 2025

Corporate “DEI” is an imperfect vehicle for deeply meaningful ideals

I have not thought or said much about DEI (Diversity, Equity and Inclusion) over the years. Not because I don’t care about the espoused ideals — I suppose I do, rather a lot — but because corporate DEI efforts have always struck me as ineffective and blan…

via charity.wtf February 10, 2025

Generated by openring